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As the title says this has been a rough week for me, and tomorrow IS a new day. This could become a looooong post of catching up!

The rough part of my week was really just depression. I was doing really well for weeks and then boy did it come back and hit me, it hit me hard and made up for time! Trying to look back on it now in a better state of mind I can’t really even think of WHY I was so depressed. It was just a mix of everything together and it took me over the edge and fast. I am so glad Len is so understanding and patient with me in this time. I feel like if we were together though things wouldn’t feel as hopeless as they do once I get into a depression like this. Having physical support (a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold) is so much more comforting to me than a text message. I’m not going to get into it though because I’ve had so much talking about and our friend Kendall has been really helping me out and I appreciate everything she does for me!

Well, I’ve been working on this post for days now, mostly because I will get distracted with something else. So as much as I wanted to write into it explaining how everything has gone, I’ll just summarize the day-to-day stuff so I can get down to the things I really want to work on. Goals. Like I said, the week started rough with the depression and then it got pretty good because I got a reply back about a job and went to an interview. The job was through a temp service and they called and asked if I’d want to work at another place (apparently I didn’t get the original job!) and of course I said yes and it ended up being a really good job/pay. I was having a hard time getting excited over the job and after finally letting myself .. the order got canceled! Ugh. Pissed. So I went and met with another woman and I have another appointment on Tuesday to see about another job. That was a roller-coaster ride emotionally. I still feel, even with jobs on the horizon, that I want to go back to CA. So, so, so, so, so much!

So anyways. For the last couple of days that I have been pretty okay emotionally and mentally, I have thought that I need to step up my game with my blog and my health stuff. I need to get back on track with my to-do lists of course, I also want to actually commit to an exercise routine. The weather around here has been getting pretty super nice instead of in your face I-can’t-breath-oh-lord-please-help-me humid hot. I get this weird feeling of i want to do SOMETHING, but I just can’t figure out what it is let alone how to do it. I can’t figure it out! So what I am going to do in this post is to set some new things up!


Sometimes I can do a great job with my eating (mostly when I have a job and can afford food). Other times I find myself bingeing, a lot. I need to find my balance. I need to find a way to not constantly think about what am I going to be eating next and going through an hour of calorie counting and then find myself really hungry because all I have done is think about food. I’m still not completely sure on a full-blown plan, but a few things I want to start doing and I still think slow and steady will be my best overall plan. I’ve had a subscription, from my wonderful boyfriend Len, to Jillian Michaels website. I used it for a while but didn’t follow through, I didn’t like the food tracker and used it mostly for information and the exercise stuff. Of course after the subscription I found Spark People (free!). I want to use this tool to really help me out, it is free after all and I really like their food tracker! My plan is 1400-1600 calories. Now, I’m not going to narrow myself to ONLY healthy stuff now because at this point in life (with no money and not much choice of what is bought to eat) I would rather just stick to goals that are achievable. So no matter what I eat as long as I stick to those calories, and that doesn’t give me an excuse to eat a 1000 calorie burger (but if I reaaaally wanted it I could!).


This subject I struggle with. A lot. My mentality is that if I’ve already eaten something bad, what’s the point in exercising? I’ve already ruined my day. Well, I need to think different. If I do happen to eat something that I feel is on the lower end of the healthy spectrum, then I NEED to exercise. I also can’t just stop it there. I think because my food really isn’t something I can completely control, I need to find my control in exercise. If that means creating a schedule (something I didn’t want to do starting this journey) for exercise then so be it. Maybe it’s what I need. I’ve thought of either creating my routine, or perhaps doing the couch to 5k plan. It might take me awhile longer to get to certain fitness levels on that, but it could be a good goal to do. I’m still kind of working this part out.


I actually felt really good when I was keeping track of my goals and having routines etc. I think for myself and to make myself feel better, I need to do and get back into my to-do lists and my routines. I tend to do something for a day or two and then go back to old ways, but I am going to stick to my lists this time.

This is my tentative plan now. I am going to take more time to actually plan out what I’m going to do now and hopefully my next post will have updates on that.

I wish I had taken pictures the last week. I made a really good meatloaf from Healthy Decadence show on FitTV, it was actually really yummy and my very picky sister loved it! Tonight I had made pork chops a new way from a random website I had taken the idea off of, but didn’t really follow the recipe. Basically I used a seasoning salt then browned the pork chops, I used 3 onions sliced and a cup of water and then simmered it all together. Turned the chops, simmered again. At the end the onions were gone (they weren’t suppose to be!) and I ended up making a bit of a gravy to put over the chops. It may not have been the most healthy, but it was damn delicious!

Anyhoo, tomorrow is the start of a new week, and a holiday at that. It will be a good day!


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If I had a job I might kick back and relax and have a lazy Saturday and Sunday, but I don’t, so my weekends are usually much like the rest of my week .. BORING!! Today however I made 2 things food-wise and I feel accomplished and happy!

My day started kinda late, I still need to work on going to bed early and waking up early. So I was going to wait to make the pancit I have craved (and got the noodles for yesterday at the Asian market) for some day when we had to go to the store and I’d pick up the veggies that I needed. I was really craving it though for some reason so I ran to the store and grabbed what I needed and then I was happily and excitedly in the process of making Pancit! Now, I really didn’t have big expectations because 1) I had eaten pancit made from awesome cooks (Lens mom and aunt) who have probably made it their whole lives and 2) Because it was my first time even attempting it. You know what? It didn’t come out half bad! My sister liked it which is surprising because she’s pretty picky. All in all I got my fix, and made a good dish! Also, when I had made my first loaf of bread I had also made a spreadsheet to figure out how many calories and stuff would be in a serving of any recipes I made. I plugged in the information for the pancit and it was really good!

1 cup = 50 cal, 2 fat, 4.5 carbs

I was reading some health/food blogs and came across a recipe for Banana Oatmeal Cookies and looking through the ingredients I knew I had all of those things (minus flax-seed), and being they looked super yummy i was all for making them! I figured I’d do the smart thing first and plug them into my recipe nutrition figure outer spreadsheet thingy, and I was very surprised at the stats on these. It was not very good per cookie, like almost 150 calories and 15 carbs per cookie. I did end up making them, but I don’t think I’ll be eating very many of them or at least only ONE.

I was reading some healthy living blogs and I had a moment of inspiration seeing that a LOT of the people who do these blogs are runners. I guess reading about running makes me really want to do it. So I grabbed some workout clothes and my dog and jumped in the car. We drove just down the road to a local church where there is a small graveyard with a road going around it and cotton field surrounding it now. Pretty secluded and safe feeling (no random dogs running around). I forgot to drive around the road to figure out the distance but I walked two laps around with the last stretch on a jog. I then walked a stretch, jogged a stretch, walked a stretch, and half jog/walked the last stretch back to the car. All in all for not doing much exercise I think that was really good start! I felt really accomplished afterward.

My to-do list was pretty small, and still didn’t do much on it. Most of what I did today was pretty random, like the cooking/baking. I am sooo tired now though!! Finishing up this post and then heading to bed! Somehow I managed to delete my to-do list for today before I saved it to show. My weekly will have to do this time!

Lots of pictures after the jump 🙂 Will add recipes and links for the food tomorrow. (more…)

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